[. generation .]

Is it really true that my last post was in 2012? Or did some posts disappear on me when I stopped blogging??

Fast forward a few years and boy has my life changed!! Married and with child?!?! What happened to me first?

Being a parent has drastically changed my view on life again - the old is gone and the new has come. Everyday my actions and thoughts are always based on my little one. What happened to me first? All the effort i've put in establishing my career and travel plans has taken a 1 year maternity-hiatus. My energy has now been refocused on building my own family.

Last night was the first time some close family friends meet our little one. These are people whom I don't see often - perhaps once a year if not twice. But they knew me as a kid and watched me grow.  We are closely bonded by the friendship and sisterhood my late grandmother had with their mother who is still alive and well. If only my grandmother was still here she would meet our little one. Perhaps she would tell my little one of all my childhood stories when we lived together and let me know how my little one and I are similar.

My grandmother was not there physically. You cannot see her in the family photos we took.... But I thought about you, Ma-Ma, and I'm glad my family still meet up with your best friend and her family. It brings some kind of a warm comfort that my little one is surrounded by your love through your friend, my dad and aunt. May you continue to watch over us and now our little one- the next generation....

[. wave .]

The World Is Ours - Eleven Past One

CHORUS
Riding a wave, chasing the sun, only gets better when your with someone
Someone that you love who takes your breath away,
we're wild and we're young, we're living for today

VERSE 1
Tell me where you come from, you look like your hope's gone
I can tell you need someone today, Get into the rhythm, forget all your problems, Why not let the waves wash them all away
I know you came for the weekend, but girl theres no way you're leaving, this is where it begins, feels like we're stars in a movie, I'm Romeo you're my Julie, Just stop and take it all in.

CHORUS
Riding a wave, chasing the sun, only gets better when your with someone
Someone that you love who takes your breath away,
we're wild and we're young, we're living for today
 

The World Is Ours

VERSE 2
Drive up to the canyon, check out all the mansions, pretend we're in a phantom that'd be cool, Then back down to the ocean, swim out to the dolphins, we can have it all just me and you.
I know you came for the weekend, but girl theres no way you're leaving, this is where it begins, feels like we're stars in a movie, I'm Romeo you're my Julie, Just stop and take it all in.

CHORUS:
Riding a wave, chasing the sun, only gets better when your with someone
Someone that you love who takes your breath away,
we're wild and we're young, we're living for today

The World Is Ours

BRIDGE
Lets get lost in the fire light, there's only us tonight, we can talk from dusk till dawn. Swim free in a starlit sea, we will always be, forever young.

CHORUS
Riding a wave, chasing the sun, only gets better when your with someone
Someone that you love who takes your breath away,
we're wild and we're young, we're living for today.

The World Is Ours

[. like a rainbow .]

True Colors - Artists Against Bullying

(Hedley, Simple Plan, Kardinal Offishall, Lights, Alyssa Reid, Fefe Dobson & Walk Off the Earth)

You with the sad eyes, don’t be discouraged
Oh I realize, it’s hard to take courage
In a world full of people, you can lose sight of it
And the darkness inside you makes you feel so small

But I see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors, that’s why I love you
So don’t be afraid to let them show your true colors
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow
(Oh oh oh oh, Oh oh oh oh, Oh oh oh oh)
Like a rainbow
(Oh oh oh oh, Oh oh oh oh, Oh oh oh oh)

Show me a smile then, don’t be unhappy
Can’t remember when I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy and you’ve taken all you can bear
You call me up because you know I’ll be there

I see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors, that’s why I love you
So don’t be afraid to let them show your true colors
True colors are beautiful (Cheer up!) like a rainbow

I see your colors though they appear to be different
You should never be afraid because your difference is the difference
We live in a time where to be yourself is hard
And the way you really feel can leave you emotional scar
But stay strong, stay firm and never back down
Being yourself is the only way to act that
(Like a rainbow)
Trust me, I’m a fighter and a lover
But the only time I fight is to reveal my true colors
You know
(Oh oh oh oh, Oh oh oh oh, Oh oh oh oh)

I see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors, that’s why I love you
So don’t be afraid to let them show your true colors
True colors are beautiful like a rainbow
Like a rainbow
Your true colors, yeah
Your true colors, yeah
I see them, your true colors
You with your sad eyes

[. truth .]

On Remembrance Day we remember those who served their country and fought for what they believed in for the future generations. Thank you, Veterans, for your service and that my family and I can live in this country peacefully.

 It's been quite hard lately.  Sometimes life just pulls you in almost every direction possible and you try to keep yourself together to do what you are required to do and just get through it day after day- hopefully still sane and still yourself... possibly renewed from different experiences.  I find that at rough times like these its good to try something different and let loose once in a while when a good, safe and comfortable opportunity arises; we can't always keep on-the-go achieving our goals 24/7; need a little break here and there... the tricky part is not to lose yourself and be rejuvenated from this new experience to continue the journey ahead.  I'm a music lover deep down, and its been a long time where I use my musical skills for fun and enjoyment.  I'm glad I got to share this new experience with my loved one.

For some reason I couldn't post Tim Hughes - Day After Day youtube video =( so this cover will have to do. Lyrics below!

Day After Day - Tim Hughes (cover)

*** lyrics based on above cover ***

Day after day I'll search to find you
Day after day I'll wait for you
The deeper I go the more I love your name

Day after day I'll search to find you
Day after day I'll wait for you
The deeper I go the more I love your name

So keep my heart pure and my ways true
As I follow you
Keep me humble; I'll stay mindful
Of your mercies Lord

I'll cherish your word, I'll seek your presence
I'll chase after you with all I have
For one day I'll know I'll see you face to face

Keep my heart pure and my ways true
As I follow you
Keep me humble; I'll stay mindful
Of your mercies Lord

Keep me humble; I'll stay mindful
Of your mercies Lord

Keep me heart pure and my ways true

As I follow you

[. decisions .]

Life is full of difficult decisions. Some times you will find yourself with no options, and other times you will find yourself torn between two or more very tempting options and will have to assess which is the better one for the present that will have a positive impact for the future.  I think having a clear and objective mind weighing the pros and cons of each options really help.  This can be difficult to do as we are very subjective people. I think that is why talking to different people to hear their reasoning will provide a wider perspective and help with the decision making. Meditation and praying are also very helpful tools.  Below is a prayer written by Reinhold Niebuhr.

God, grant me grace to accept with serenity

the things that cannot be changed,

Courage to change the things

which should be changed,

and the Wisdom to distinguish

the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,

Enjoying one moment at a time,

Accepting hardships as a pathway to peace,

Taking, as Jesus did,

This sinful world as it is,

Not as I would have it,

Trusting that you will make all things right,

If I surrender to Your will,

So that i may be reasonably happy in this life,

And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.

[. worship .]

Recently my boyfriend came across many experiences which shows him how much God is taking care of him.  Thank you, God, for all your blessings! I find that it's not easy being Christian. Especially when at work you meet so many different people with different experiences - and then you ask yourself gosh how do i want to live my life? God's Spirit is at work all the time, calling us and guiding us.  Some times we get lost other times I think we want to be lost, not to be found... until we become aware of all the signs He is showing us and realize His way isn't so bad.  I find it's hard following Jesus, at times I'm not really sure what I am doing is what He wants.

Lord, may you guide us in a life of worship to You in all that we do and in everyone we meet. Help us to listen and understand your calling. In Christ, Amen.

I wanted to hear an old song "I Can Only Imagine" by Mercy Me and came across this YouTube video with a very touching story. Check it out!

[. getting organized .]

So I realized that I really need to clean my room.  Its been quite dusty and cluttered with stuff. I have a desk which I use to work on however there's no space for me to put my laptop and books because I have all these other junk spilled all over it.  I also realized I couldn't bring my mind to calm down, not be distracted and just focus to study. There were just too many things around that catches my attention. Guess what? I put my heart to it. Wiped down the dustiness in my room from top to bottom, vacuumed and organized a bit.  There are still plenty of stuff that needs to be organized though!  However, i feel so much better and actually able to get some studying done.

Look! There's even space on the ground!
Time to swing back into a good routine.