[. counting headlights .]

wooooooo..... it's been a while since my last post!
and one thing i have to say..... lots happened since may lol

but there have been 2 different experiences that made me think a lot about being disable
out of all the people i know, there are a few who are recognized as being disable
this is a good thing - that there aren't so many

but, it makes me wonder... how is their everyday life? how do they feel? what are their dreams? is our society providing enough services for them? how can we improve their living?

experience #1:
2 weeks ago, i somehow caught a nasty cold and i literally lost my voice for 5 whole days
i stayed home in bed for the first few days. and for the other days, i looked for things to do in the house - reading, listening to music, watch tv, cleaned around etc.
it was nice to be at home... but it did get boring at times...
it was also terribly hard to communicate with my family and people who dropped by at our house
i had to frantically wave my arms just to catch their attention and to whisper what i want to say
when people dropped by, they will be told that i caught a cold and lost my voice. i would just look and smile at them.
other times my family will start talking to me from a different room in the house and forget that i can't respond because i don't have a voice
other times i wanted to get out of the house. go to the park or the mall.
but as i told a friend, i felt terribly vulnerable without a voice and rejected opportunities.
i honestly felt like a disabled person.

i have my voice back now! hallelujah! =)
but that 5 day experience really made me think of people who has to face disability for their entire life
and that really sucks
major props to those who struggle and yet are still happy and joyful

experience #2:
so... this week's weather have been terrible!
tornado warning and everything!!!! and think there were ~ 6 tornadoes in ontario or something!!?!?!
stupid global warming... we are so environmentally doomed

so on that tornado night
part of my street had a major long blackout
and why oh why did i have to live on the part of the street that lost electricity?
the houses to our left were fine with lights illminating out like halloween lanterns... but my house and the right side of the street was dark and gloomy. many neighbours left their homes and stayed outdoors cuz it was brighter outside than inside.

as for my family, we went to a friend's house lol.
when we got home around midnight, the lights flickered a few times and .... pitch black
now this time i lost my sight.. and i really had to depend on my touch and also memory in getting around the house and finding things

am i loosing my senses or what?!?

anyway, due to these experiences and pondering... i enrolled into a course about disability lol

but on the note of school: i dislike the school system with a passion ~

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Counting Headlights - Liam Titcomb

Lying on the floor and I can't sleep
The burning in my heart is the only light I see
Doing time inside of my own mind
Waiting for you to call

So what happens next?
The message has been checked
Are you coming home?

(Chorus)
You don't know what it feels like
To have stars in your eyes
And a thorn in your side
You don't know what it feels like
Staring out your window... counting headlights

Pace the room, unlock the door
Turn the light off on the porch
Try to keep myself from going crazy
Light a candle, strike a match
Watch it as it fades to black
Should I go to bed?
I'm thinking maybe...

(Chorus)
You don't know what it feels like
To have stars in your eyes
And a thorn in your side
You don't know what it feels like
Staring out your window... counting headlights

The least you could do is let me down
Won't you let me down

As the sun peaks through the pain
Across my cheek
You're not coming home
Yeah, you're not coming home

(Chorus)
You don't know what it feels like
To have stars in your eyes
And a thorn in your side
You don't know what it feels like
Staring out your window... counting headlights

Counting headlights
Counting headlights...