[. broken // who am i? // what kind of person do i want to be? .]

yup, i am broken... shattered to pieces... like the girl described in avril lavigne's song - nobody's home...
sigh...
it's hard to go through deep emotional pains... what my friend, Joanne ^-^ [sankyu for ur quotes! they're real], said is quite true - you will have support, but you only got yourself to get through ur probs - friends can't make decisions for me; it's up to me that i share my problems with others, it's up to me to ask them for their opinions and advices, it's up to me to open my heart and receive help...
thank you to everyone who's heard me out through talks and care in the most subtle ways (uhh.. heh.. hope u guys read this? LOL) ... it is till now that i'm starting to see things in a brighter and clearer view.
i'm learning that it is through these times that i can give myself a chance to stop and take a look at what's in front of me, reflect, find my direction and let God rebuild me again - heal -
... Spirit take me up in arms with You...

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Happy long-weekend!! =)
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new song: 24 - switchfoot

Twenty-four oceans
Twenty-four skies
Twenty-four failures
And twenty-four tries
Twenty-four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
With twenty-four drop outs
At the end of the day

Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
And I'm not who I thought I was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'

There's twenty-four reasons
To admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses
Still twenty-four strong

See, I'm not copping out
Not copping out
Not copping out
When you're raising the dead in me

Oh, oh
I am the second man
Oh, oh
I am the second man now
Oh, I am the second man now
And you're raising these...

Twenty-four voices
With twenty-four hearts
All of my symphonies
In twenty-four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true
I'm singing 'Spirit take me up in arms with You'
You're raising the dead in me

Oh, oh
I am the second man
Oh, oh
I am the second man now
Oh
I am the second man now
And you're raising the dead in me
Yeah

I wanna see miracles
To see the world change
Wrestled the angel for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
And you're raising the dead in me

Twenty-four oceans
With twenty-four hearts
All of my symphonies
With twenty-four parts
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
I'm not copping out
Not copping out
Not copping out